Waves

I was recently told that the "wake" I create touches more people that I could imagine.  I'm certain he meant that in a positive light.

But, tonight my waves could have drowned someone.  Unfortunately, my family were the ones getting drenched.  My stress, my frustrations, my fears, my failures ... usually all well-kept, nice and neat, inside ... just burst forth like a tsunami and rocked those innocently in my path.  They never saw it coming - probably still have no clue what hit them.

My self-diagnosed "OCD" for control and organization and peace compiled with their lack of the same is wreaking havoc in my life ... and in theirs.  Sometimes it seems that life would be easier for all if I would just be swept out to sea.